I was working at the Bridge recently, and we were at a neighborhood night.  Neighborhood nights are when we get together at someone’s house to serve the kids and community in that neighborhood food.  It is also a chance to get to know one another and play some games.  We started having a good time.  We played some four square with the kids, and we were getting ready to serve them food when the worst moment I have ever had at a Bridge occurred and one of the most traumatizing moments in my life in general.  A pit bull came out and attacked one of our ten-year-old boys.  We ended up having to call 911 where he was taken away into surgery in order to repair all the skin and muscle damage that was done to him.  We had to then, of course, call the police in order to take away the pit bull, and we had to get the rest of the kids away from the situation.  

There is a lot of guilt that many of us are thinking and feeling on the team.  Why did I not step in front of the dog?  Why didn’t I react faster?  Why did we bring him to our neighborhood night?  Why did any of this happen at our event?  I know that it can be very easy to start questioning ourselves and become filled with shame.  We can have shame and guilt because of something that we have experienced or something that we have done or even something that we can’t control.  The Devil is really good at using this moment of shame and our guilt to tear us away from the Lord and to make a big wedge between the two of us. He doesn’t want us to feel loved by our Father and Creator, so he creates shame so we don’t feel as though we can have a substantial relationship.  

The Bible brings up the topic of shame on a regular basis.  There are a lot of warnings about loving the world and loving the things in the world that then we should be filled with shame.  This is specifically in the Old Testament a lot.  However, then you will also read that Jesus died on the cross, bearing all of our shame, and then resurrected from the dead conquering that same sin and shame.  Because of Jesus’ death on the cross, the Bible then reminds us that we should not be ashamed of the Lord’s testimony, and we should not feel any shame when we are found in the Lord’s love and message.  When we are a believer and a child of God, we should not feel any shame for any wrong that we have done because we have been forgiven.  We can learn from our mistakes and choose to grow closer to the Lord instead. 1 Peter 4:16 declares, “However  if you suffer as a Christian, do not be ashamed, but praise God that you bear that name.”  

I know that we all experience shame in different ways.  This may be sin that we struggle with.  This may be our body and ashamed of our looks.  These may be decisions that we have made in the past.  However, regardless of the shame that you have currently or in the past few years, it is important to remember that God loves us and wants to forgive us for any wrongdoing.  This all reminds me of one of my favorite songs which happen to be “The Father’s House,” by Cory Asbury.  (Side note-I really do love Cory Asbury-he really has amazing songs!) One of the lyrics is “Leave your shame at the door because it ain’t welcome anymore.”  How notable is that lyric?  Your shame is not welcomed by the Lord or in his house.  He wants you to be there without any shame or guilt.  

One goal I will set myself for this week is to spend some time journaling what I am ashamed of.  I am going to try to think more about what it is that I feel ashamed of and where I feel the most shame.  I then am going to ask someone to talk to about it and then to spend some time in prayer over this shame that I have.  This is also going to be my challenge for you this week.  I know this is a bigger challenge, but I believe that it is important for us all to be aware of what it is that brings us shame and to bring that to someone that we love and who loves us.  Then to finally bring this to the Lord, so we can continue to conquer shame and conquer over the enemy that is bringing us that shame.  We are not going to be perfect while we are on the earth.  We can continue to grow closer to God, but we can not continue to stay in the shame because that will not help us in our relationship and it is not welcomed by the Lord.  

To give an update, that 10-year-old boy had surgery and is doing a lot better.  We went as a summer team with his sister and picked out a gift to give to him.  When we gave him the gift, he was so very excited and happy.  It was a new video game, candy, and Gatorade.  He instantly went to play his new game.  He even gave us all hugs because he was so ecstatic with the new gift.  He is one tough boy, and I am so happy that this is not going to take away his happiness or his spirit.  

Dear Lord, 

I want to pray over our youth.  I know that there are some issues that our youth are facing at this moment.  There are many youth advocates, teachers, and parents that are very tired of the kids.  They have a lot of different behaviors that are challenging the ones closest to them.  As much as I love being a teacher and working in a youth nonprofit, I also will say that there are many times when I am very exhausted from the youth that I am often interacting with.  They say things and do things that push my patience until I am exhausted at the end of the day.  

Lord, please help the young ones who COVID very much impacted.  Because of the lockdown, they have more mental health issues.  There is an increasing amount of depression and anxiety.  There is also an increasing amount of kids who are suicidal or who have wanted to hurt themselves.  As a teacher, I hear more and more about students who need to go to a counselor on a more regular basis.  I believe in going to therapy, but the incessant need for these kids to have to talk to someone and cry makes my heart hurt.  It is often impacting their studies and their friendships.  

Lord, I want you to protect their minds.  There are many things that seem to attack their young thoughts and feelings.  While I love my phone and I believe that phones have a lot of benefits, I also believe they have caused destruction and attacked young minds.  I believe they see destructive behaviors and attitudes on social media and on videos.  I have seen so many kids make so many bad decisions when it comes to their cell phones and there have been many times, they have put themselves in severe danger.  I pray that the cell phone and social media will have a lessening hold on the youth, and I pray that I can be a good mentor for how one should best use their cell phone in a healthy way.  

Lord, please help all children not have to stress about the major things in the world.  They should not have to spend a lot of their time thinking about whether or not, there will ever be a school shooter or another shutdown, or the coming of another war.  These are not the items that young people should be spending their time thinking about.  They should be more focused on laughing, joking, and making memories.  I often feel that my students are worried about adult things or things that shouldn’t be relevant-relationships, wars, and social media.  Sometimes when I hear the conversations my students are having, it makes me sad because they are trying to sound as though they are already adults as opposed to kids.   

Please help me to be the best youth advocate that I can possibly be.  Please help me as I am teaching and please help me as I am working on the summer team at the Bridge of Storm Lake.   I want to be a light and a good mentor to all the young people I encounter on a regular basis.  I know that I can struggle with patience when there are disrespectful or bad behaviors that pop up, but I also need to remember that there are some times that these young students and kids struggle to control these behaviors.  I want to be able to teach them good behavior and healthy attitudes without getting angry and potentially ruining many relationships.  

I also want to pray over the other mentors and the other advisors, and teachers that are interacting with kids.  I believe that it is important that these adults are also good mentors and good role models for these children.  I know that there are many parents, teachers, and adults that have sadly hurt children, and I am praying that will happen less, and less until it is not around.  I pray that any adult that interacts regularly with children will be an example of your guiding light.  

In Jesus’ name 

Amen

I really want to write.  I want to write books that get published and have devotions that reach a lot of the world.  I love to write.  I love to get my ideas out on paper.  While I don’t always love editing, I love the opportunity to make my writing clearer and better overall for the reader. However, I’m scared and I’m confused.  I’m confused because I don’t know the best way to get my written works out there.  Who do I talk to?  How does the process work?  How long will all this work take?  Then I am scared because I don’t know who would want to read my written works.  What if what I write is just not good enough? What if no one likes what I have to say?  

I also can get overwhelmed, and I have moments where I don’t even know if I should be writing or if maybe it is just too much for me.  Best to let others do that.  It is very funny if you knew me in college and knew how I felt about writing.  I didn’t like writing at the time.  I had a professor tell me in more than a few words, that I wasn’t very good at writing papers.  He didn’t like what I had to say and he didn’t think that I was very good.  He didn’t think that I would ever be good at writing.  He tried to be nice about it, but overall, you could tell that he didn’t have much faith in my writing abilities.  He liked that I worked hard, but it just wasn’t enough.  Because he told me I wasn’t very good, I didn’t even like to write.  I would lament every time it was required of us to write a paper for class.  Then after a few years of doubt and self-pity, I had a burning desire for quite a while to start my own blog and to start writing again.  I am glad the Lord worked through my insecurity and doubt and had me start on this journey.  

It is very normal to be scared and confused.  Many of us have dreams.  Sure, we have the dreams when we are kids that we want to be a superhero, but then we grow up and we have a dream job like teaching or being a nurse or a construction worker.  Then sometimes, our dreams change, even as we continue to grow in our adulthood.  We may develop a dream that is not just about what we do every day, but what we want to achieve or what we want to experience. However, we can then be anxious of actually going for those very dreams. Something that I realized though, as I was reflecting on this was, that I am not the one who will decide whether or not I will ever write or become a successful writer, God is. If the Lord has put this desire in my heart and given me the means, I can trust that I can pursue this passion through my blog and journaling.  If the Lord opens the door for my writing to continue, then it is a part of His Will.  

When Jesus was scared of his approaching death, he reached out to the Lord. He cried out, and asked, “Lord if it be possible, take this cup away from me.  But not my will, Lord, your will.”  This was a good reminder that Jesus even submitted to the will of God.  Even the son of God, who was fully God himself, had to listen to God’s plans and follow his will, not his own will.  Jesus had to go through something incredibly painful after this, which was dying on the cross, but that ended up being the absolute best thing for humanity.  People were finally able to be saved from their sins because he followed the Lord’s Will.  

Similarly, we may have to go through trials and we may have to go through times that make us doubt ourselves and our ability. I am going to say that it is important to take time to pray to the Lord about our deepest desires, fears, anxieties, and confusions.  The Lord wants to hear this and wants to be there for us.  The Lord wants to continue developing us and using our hearts and our desires and our plans for His Kingdom.  I pray that I will continue to develop a love for writing and a love for developing my stories and thoughts.  

Dear Lord, 

Thank you for giving me the ability to write.  Thank you that you have given me the means with a laptop and a typewriter.  Thank you for giving me thoughts in my head that then turn into words on a paper or words that are printed out.  Thank you for giving me an opportunity to blog.  

Please help me to use my gifts to please you.  Please help me to remember that it was you who has given me gifts and desires.  It has been you, who has given me words and emotions that I then can include in my writing plan.  Please help me remember that wherever my writing will go or whoever will read it, it has been planned out by you.  

In the Lord’s name,  Amen

Ever since I was a young girl, my favorite woman and, therefore, character, from the Bible (minus Jesus) is Esther.  I remember that I first started loving her story when I watched it in Veggie Tales.  I have read through her story multiple times in the Bible.  It is so wonderful that there is a woman who is brave and courageous that I can look up to.  The Bible is actually filled with women who are strong believers and filled with love and courage, and Esther is one of them.  I find this incredibly encouraging when those women were alive during a time when women were not in positions of power and were not often regarded in society. 

I love her story because she is very much an example of courage and bravery.  I can only imagine how scared she must have been when she was tasked to tell the king that his right-hand man has made a decree to kill all her people.  Therefore, she is actually supposed to be killed like the rest of them.  Also, she was not supposed to enter the king’s quarters unless she had been summoned, so she was taking a risk even if he wouldn’t have heard out what she had to say, and the bad news that she had to share.  She also was great at listening to what the Lord had planned for her.  She had a role to play in saving her and God’s people, and she followed that role.  

This is always a good reminder that sometimes we as people need to have courage.  We especially have to have the courage, to tell the truth.  This may be admitting that we are Christian in a group of people who are against Christianity, this may be admitting that we did something wrong, when we really are afraid of the repercussions.  I know that I have been brought up, to tell the truth.  My mom really values truthfulness, and she wanted me to as well.  I would say that I do overall, but I know that it can be the most tempting to bend the truth in order to help me in situations.  It takes courage to always tell the truth, even when it doesn’t benefit us right away.  However, we owe ourselves and the people around us the truth at all times.  

Esther also really had courage when it came to sharing the Lord’s message.  She was a Jew who followed God, and she was willing to admit she was a Jew and was one of God’s people.  She did not disown her identity, but she held firm in who she was.  I am, again, not the best at boasting who my identity is in Christ.  I would say I do not go out of my way to really talk about the Lord and all that he has done for me.  I don’t always go to people and tell them about the Lord, and his love for all of us.  I know if I am honest it is because I am fearful of being uncomfortable around others.  I know that is not a good reason.  I know that I should be willing to risk being in an uncomfortable position for the sake of the Lord and for the desire of others to hear about the Lord, even if it will make me uncomfortable at the moment.  I also have to remember that this becomes easier and easier with practice.  

Esther also really cared about listening to God’s plan.  I will say that she listened to God through her cousin Mordecai, but it was still very important that she listened.  I say this a lot, but it can be so hard for me to follow God’s plan.  I love to make my own schedule, my own goals, and my own plan, and while I think that is how God has made me, A type-A person type, it is also important that I don’t make my plan more important than God’s plan.  I need to remember to listen.  I may need to take more time out of my day to slow down and really hear what the Lord has to say about my future.  

One of my favorite verses from the Bible comes from the book of Esther.  Esther’s cousin Mordecai tells her that she may have been put in the position she has been for a reason. This is in Esther 4:14, “For if you remain silent at this time, relief and deliverance for the Jews will arise from another place, but you and your father’s family will perish. And who knows but that you have come to your royal position for such a time as this?”  I just love that verse, and I always will.  God did plan for Esther to be in the position of Queen so she could save the Jewish people who were her family.  

It is a good reminder for me, as well as for everyone to remember that we have been placed in the area that we are because the Lord has planned it to be that way.  There have been certain coworkers that God has placed in my life for a particular reason.  There are certain students that God wants me to teach.  There are opportunities through fundraisers, leadership positions, and hobbies that God has given me for a particular reason.  I may not fully understand everything now, but I have to trust that God knows.  

My challenge for you this week is to think about who from the Bible is someone that really inspires you.  There are so many wonderful people to look at in the Bible.  There is Paul, Peter, Mary, Martha, David, Moses, Ezra, Ezekiel, Elijah, and many, many more.  It is also incredibly important to look at the reasons why they are someone that you admire.  What are the characteristics that they have that you want to possess? Those who are in the Bible are in there for a purposeful reason and God made sure their story was told.  This can include the good and the bad.  Now we have the opportunity to learn from them. 

I am not a fan of cleaning.  I know a lot of people don’t necessarily like cleaning, while there are some who consider it to be stress-relieving.  However, I am not one of those people.  I will say that I don’t hate it as much as I used to, and I believe that I have gotten better at cleaning since starting to live on my own.  The reason I have cleaning on my mind is that I have had to do a lot of cleaning recently.  My mom and I deep cleaned my apartment, and then I also have to move classrooms, so I needed to clean out my room in order to organize my new classroom by the end of the year.    

This made me realize that cleaning is an important part of life.  Can you imagine if you never cleaned your apartment or house?  It would be a disaster, and sometimes it could lead to sickness if there is a lot of mold and dust.  Also, it is very important to clean on a fairly regular basis, because that way we don’t get engulfed by all the cleaning and the work that we need to do.  If we spend time cleaning every once in a while, and keep up with it, then our places will be cleaner and we will be less overwhelmed. 

We also need to clean out our hearts when it comes to the Lord.  There are times when we can get so distracted by items in our life that we may not be noticing the Lord’s goodness that is happening.  We get busy, and then all of a sudden we may notice, that we aren’t growing in our relationship with the Lord, we start forgetting to pray or read our Bible, and soon our emotions and behavior are much impacted.  Just like cleaning the house, this is best if it is something we do on a regular basis, not something that we do just every once in a while.  Cleaning your heart regularly will make your heart less dirty, just like cleaning your house regularly will keep you away from becoming behind and overcome by filth.  

Believe it or not, there are even verses such as one in Psalms about having a clean heart and keeping one’s heart clean.  This is Psalm 51:10, “Create in me a clean heart, O God, and renew a right spirit within me.”  I love this verse because it is so simple.  The desire is that God helps his believers to have a clean heart.  This is one of the times when we need to remember that our heart is the leader of how we feel, how we interact with others, how we act in our everyday lives, and how we even love ourselves starts with our heart and how well it is staying cleaned. 

How do we best do that? Well, again, just like cleaning, it is important to break this down into steps.  First, there is the dusting and vacuuming.  I believe this is like getting alone or with a believer you trust in order to start the airing out of your ugliness and your sins.  It is important to get yourself away from the distractions and the toxicity of the world, at large.  This really can only be done with yourself and your heart or with a trusted fellow brother or sister in Christ.  This is getting away from things that could make you sin just like dusting or vacuuming can get rid of the items that can cause sickness in your home.  

The next thing in cleaning is scrubbing.  This can be when we scrub our oven, our showers, our sinks, and even, yes, our toilets.  After separating ourselves from the world, or we are with our trusted brother and sister in Christ, now there is a need to talk deeply about the sin we are struggling with, and spend time reading through the Bible about his complete truth.  We are letting God take his place back into our hearts.  This also should be done in correlation with prayer, and this may also include a lot of emotion.  I know when I have done deep dives or spent a long time in the Bible, I will usually end up in tears.  It can be an emotional piece, letting your heart be cleaned and given back to the Lord.  

Lastly, there is organizing and putting everything in its place.  I believe this is spending time creating a plan to get life back on track.  This is figuring out a time every day that is best to spend with the Lord. I know that I need to develop a plan in order to keep myself accountable, and I know that it can be very important for others to do the same.  This is developing a reading plan for the Bible, a prayer journal, figuring out verses you want to memorize, etc.  It is important to remember that this will be different for everyone, and this may look different from one month to another. 

I know that I personally am overwhelmed often by my anxiety and my emotions.  I am spending time with the Lord every day for about 20 minutes, and I am going to church every week, but I know that I personally need to clean out my heart more regularly through verbal processing.  I am excited that this following fall, I have found a woman who is going to meet with me every other week or so to lead me in Bible discussions for a deeper love for the Lord.  I discovered that this was something I needed in order to grow close to the Lord and clean my heart.  My challenge for you this week is to spend some time discovering what you feel you may need to do in order to clean your heart and grow closer to the Lord. 

I have said this before, and I will say it again.  Ever since I started this blog, I have been better at looking around me and finding connections between the Lord and nature. I will look at something and get a message out of it. I know that many people can grow in their relationship with God through looking at nature.  I never really understood that concept until I started this blog. One item recently in nature that has been teaching me a message is the wind.   

I live in Iowa, and something you must know about Iowa is that we have wind.  AND lots of it! There are many days, especially now in the spring when the wind goes up to 30 mph.  There have been days where I have said that it would have been a beautiful day if it wasn’t for the wind. Recently, though, I was outside on a very windy day.  I knew that in other parts of the state, there was actually a storm brewing and creating damage.  This made me realize that even though I sometimes hate the wind, I have to give it credit that it has terrific power.  Because of its power, this made me realize that the wind is very much connected to the Bible.  

The Word of the Lord is described as many things, the Lord himself, the truth, the love story from God to his people, and it is also described as a two-edged sword.  Hebrews 4:12 says, “For the word of God is alive and active. Sharper than any double-edged sword, it penetrates even to dividing soul and spirit, joints and marrow; it judges the thoughts and attitudes of the heart.”  The Word has to be a lot of things because we experience many different obstacles, and there are many different types of situations that arise in the world.  

 I know that wind isn’t all bad, there can be many days when the wind is the only thing giving release on a really hot summer day.  The days when the sun is scorching, the humidity is high, and the wind provides relief and air.  This is in many ways what the word of the Lord is to His people.  It gives relief and gives pleasure when we are in the thick of bad times.  I know that when I was saddened by the death of my grandpa, I was able to read the Bible and come across the part that talks about the Lord being there for those who are grieving, and the Word helped soothe my soul.    

The wind, also just like the Word of the Lord, is incredibly powerful.  Most severe weather storms not only involve the wind, including tornados, tsunamis, and hurricanes but are usually destructive because of the mass amount of wind that is being blown.  Again, you have to appreciate that kind of power.  The Word of the Lord is also powerful.  We don’t always think of the Word as powerful because we may think of it as just a book, but the Word is mighty and it needs to be admired for that.  I don’t always think about the truth that the Bible can provide to us as God’s people.  It can be very easy for me to think of the Bible as an encouragement or a way to help bring comfort.  I can look to the Bible when I am sad or when I am discouraged, but I do need to remember that the Bible also shines a light on sin I need to avoid as well as hard things, such as loving my enemies, that should be completed.     

One of the ways we can appreciate and showcase the Word as powerful is through talking about it as it is filled with complete truth.  It can be very easy for me to not defend what I believe, even if it is what I have been reading throughout the Bible.  It can be very easy because I don’t want to offend anyone.  I don’t want to start a fight if someone disagrees with what the Bible says.  I am not suggesting that we pick fights with everyone, but it is important to not forget the important truths that we have learned from God, and that those truths do need to be shared.  

I love that the Lord has provided nature to teach us great life truths.  Even though I am not the biggest lover of the wind, and I often think of it as a ruiner of a good day, I can at least know that God gives a wonderful example of comfort yet power and that is just like the Bible.  I am going to start looking at and reading the Bible as the powerful force that it is.  My challenge or encouragement for you is to also start reading the Bible as a powerful force.  My other challenge for you is to find one piece of nature that reminds you of something from your Christian walk and write it down.  You will be amazed at what nature is trying to teach you.  

There is a famous hymn that says, “On Christ, the solid rock I stand, all other ground is sinking sand.”  I have heard it many times in the past,  but I have not spent much time reflecting on it until I heard it in a new light and way while reading the book, “Letter to my Daughter,” by Maya Angelou.  I love Maya Angelou.  I love reading her books, and I love how much wisdom she has to share in her life. The quote in the book which was a part of a poem was, “I am a builder Sometimes I have built well, but often I have built without researching the ground upon which I put my building. I raised a beautiful house and I lived in it for a year.  Then it slowly drifted away with the tides for I had laid the foundation upon shifting sand.”  I read those lines in that poem, and it instantly inspired me to write this blog post.    

This, of course, can not be a truly good Christian blog post unless there is a verse from the Bible.  The hymn does take its reference from a parable in the Bible from Matthew 7:24-27.  I will quote the first two verses.   “Everyone then who hears these words of mine and does them will be like a wise man who built his house on the rock.  And the rain fell and the floods came, and the winds blew and beat on that house, but it did not fall, because it had been found on a rock.”  The second half of this section in the Bible is like the builder that Maya Angelou described.  A builder who didn’t have a solid foundation, and then when the storms came, so did the house.  All of this seems fairly simple, but when really taking the time to think about how important a solid foundation is, we really do need to make sure that we have one in our Christian faith.  

This got me thinking that there are many things that I can start to build.  I wouldn’t say that I am a “builder” in the sense that I enjoy making structures.  However, I love to build up my life in the way that I believe it should be.  I love to be organized, and I love to get extra work done and create a schedule where I can get a mass amount of work done.  I can try to make the most and best lesson plans or the best blog posts or get the most books read etc.  All of that is good, and it is important to work hard.  God has given me the job that I have for a reason, and I should honor him with my work ethic.  However, it is caring about working hard and being seen as the best teacher on my own merits as opposed to having God work through me when it becomes a problem.  Then there will be something that will happen, a lesson plan will go wrong, I will receive a bad note from a parent, I will have a whole class upset with me, and I will start to feel like the sand is coming inwards and I am no longer on solid ground.  

So we need to check our ground first.  How would I suggest that?  I would suggest doing a heart check.  I would make sure that our hearts are in a good place and that our overall desire is to focus on the Lord and what his overall purpose for us is.  Besides my teaching job example, I also love to run, and yes I do in part love to run for myself, but is being a runner my complete identity?  Do I consider when I finish a race and do really well as part of who I am instead of just simply finding enjoyment out in the creation that the Lord has given me? Do I thank the Lord for my ability to run a half marathon, or do I simply just believe that I can get there on my own?  If I am looking at running or any particular activity that I am doing as an achievement of my own will, then I may need to complete a heart renovation.  

Then we need to spend some time in the Word.  This is what we are building our foundation and our life on.  How are we supposed to know what we are supposed to build off of if we never spend time? I know that it can be incredibly difficult to spend time in God’s word.  There are so many pieces that are hard to understand and are hard to piece together.  This is especially true if you are reading in the Old Testament where there was old Hebrew law, and people were allowed to make sacrifices.  It can be incredibly jarring.  I have discovered that I love to complete devotionals with a devotional guide to help lead me in my understanding of what the Bible is saying.  Talking the Bible over with a friend or a mentor is also incredibly helpful.  Bible studies with fellow believers are my absolute favorite, and it is incredibly refreshing to grow closer to God with our fellow brothers and sisters in Christ.   

Thirdly,  I think that it is important to pray.  I especially believe that one needs to pray with two goals in mind.  The first is thankfulness to the Lord for the ability and the possibility to do all the things that you want to do, whether this is run, or sing, or make music, or read, or write, your particular job, etc.  It is important to thank the Lord for all that he has given and will continue to give.  Then the second part is to pray that you keep Him in mind, whenever you are doing something and not just thinking of yourself.  

I do want to remind everyone, that this is not saying that we will never come across hard times.  Just because we build our house on nothing but the Lord, doesn’t mean that we won’t have trials and tribulations.  In fact, God guarantees that we will fall on rough times.  However, it is important to build yourself on God because when those hard times do come, you will not be shaken down or crumble. You will be able to stand through those rough waters and those harsh winds.  My challenge for you this week is to think of something that you may have started putting a foundation on.  Again, this can be any of your hobbies, your job, your relationship, etc.  I then want you to spend time in prayer over that particular piece of your life.  This is probably not a negative item in your life.  It is most likely a positive, but it shouldn’t be your life.  Pray to God, thanking him for whatever it is you are building off of, and ask him to help you make it a part of your house, not the foundation.  

I was doing a Bible study recently, and I was learning about King David.  The author of the Bible study guide mentioned that King David, while one with flaws, was his role model.  Then the question was who was my role model.  I realized that I don’t have just one person that I model my life after.  Yes, Jesus, of course, but when talking about “people” role models, I couldn’t list just one.  I have been so blessed to have so many people in my life that have influenced me and the characteristics that they have that I want to one day possess in my own life.  

One person of course is my mom.  If you have read a lot of my blog posts, then you know that my mom is my best friend and my favorite person in the whole world.  My two favorite qualities about my mom are her honesty and her thoughtfulness.  I have always loved how honest she is.  She will tell you what she is feeling.  She will give you her genuine thoughts and feelings.  I know that honesty is important and being willing to tell people your true opinions is something that should be valued in this world.  She is also thoughtful.  She thinks of others and what she can do for them constantly.   She is always buying her friends gifts, making them meals, and reaching out to them when they are sad.

Another person is my grandma.  Something that I absolutely love about my grandma is that she is generous.  She loves to give to those who need it.  She loves to give to a good cause.  This has always inspired me and my mother to be conscious of where our money is going and what we can be doing with it.  She never cared much about possessions.  She knows that you don’t need the nicest things in order to live a good life.  She cared more about living simple and making sure that those she loves and cares about are well taken care of and loved.  

Thirdly is Jess. She was always someone that I looked up to when I was living and working at Storm Lake.  She is so kind and she cares so much about the kids that she was serving in Storm Lake.  She was intentional.  She put aside time to serve and be with the kids and the girls she was discipling.  The first summer after she moved to India, and I worked at the Bridge without her, I tried to be as intentional with the kids as she was.  Laying down in my trailer, and I would hear the kids come from my neighborhood and knock, I would gather up some energy and spend some extra time outside, even past the work hours with the kids that God had called me to serve.  This has been a good reminder as I have become a teacher.  Sometimes, we have to be selfless with our time to really spend with those around us that we love.  

Fourthly is Shelly.  Shelly is God-fearing.  She loves Jesus and seeks to be his light wherever she goes.  She is also very kind and sweet.   However, my favorite part about her is her positivity.  She is always trying to be a ray of sunshine to the people around her, and she is always trying to be the sunshine in a rainy or a dark situation.  I know that must take a lot of strength and determination.  There are a lot of rough situations and not letting it get the most of you is pretty amazing.  Her positivity is contagious and many around her seek to find the positive after talking with her.

A fifth person I admire and look up to is Hillary.  Hillary is my best friend.  We met in college, and what is odd is that she was put into a class that I was tutoring in, and then she wanted to join a Bible Study that I was leading.  Even though, she then was one that God had put in my life to help lead, her compassionate and empathetic heart is one that I often find completely admirable.  She cares about people so deeply.  She weeps when they have pain and she is filled with joy when they are happy and are successful.  She is also a prayer warrior and is so great at spending time praying for others around her.  She takes time with the Lord seriously.  I am glad when we have deep conversations about the Word together.  

There are so many more people in my life who have provided me with a great deal of inspiration.  There have been so many teachers that I have worked with who I want to be more like.  There are so many prayer warriors that I want to pray like.  There are strong Christian men and women who I have learned life lessons from.  This also reminds me of the verses that I have memorized of Hebrews 10:24-25 which says, “And let us consider how we may spur one another on toward love and good deeds, not giving up meeting together, as some are in the habit of doing, but encouraging one another—and all the more as you see the Day approaching.”  This is a good reminder that we are to encourage one another and help sharpen one another to be the best people that we can possibly be.  It is important to care about one another’s well-being and to love each believer to help them grow.  None of us are perfect, but we are all given qualities from the Lord that will help one another.  Who are your role models? I hope you have as many as I do. You also never know, you could be a role model for someone in your own life.

When I was a kid, I remember my pastor telling stories about times when he would lose his temper, and then he would have to apologize.  He would tell stories about when he would be in various places such as an airport, and he would have a moment of frustration and would snap at an airport attendant or other worker.  Then later, he would feel conviction and would find the airport attendant to apologize.  This always struck me.  I know that everyone gets upset and sins, but really my pastor could.  No way.  I guess it was good that he at least apologized.  

The truth is that we all get upset about the things that we shouldn’t.  I know that at least, I do.  I can get mad at the smallest things.  In this particular situation, I am talking about, I was upset that my one medicine prescription was denied.   Therefore, I had to call the doctor and then drive another half hour to pick up my medicine later than I had expected.  It was such a small thing, yet it made me terribly upset.  

This was a good reminder of how to be kind in moments that are harder.  Going back to the moment where I was upset, I was a bit frustrated sounding with the pharmacist. I know it wasn’t her fault. She was not the one who didn’t double-check that the pills were being made before driving a half hour. That was me. She was not the one who didn’t answer the initial call from the doctor to reschedule a physical and therefore didn’t check my prescription refill from the doctor, that was me. It is a humbling experience to realize that we are not always perfect and that sometimes we need to remind ourselves to be kinder and to be forgiving and to be loving when we are upset.  It is always important to realize that we should, as Christians, and as responsible adults, be aware and conscious of our emotions. 

This is also something that I need to make sure to teach my students.  I work with high schoolers, who I know are not always in complete control of their emotions.  Because of this, they will sometimes lash out at people and at things that are really not deserving.  It can be hard to tame down the situation when someone is so upset.  It can be hard to get the moment back to before they freaked out.  Whenever any of my students have apologized to me, I always make sure to thank them.  I will tell them that I believe it is very important to admit they are wrong and to try to make it right.  Even in the situations when I have said something wrong to a student or gotten upset when I shouldn’t, I also try to take the time to apologize to them.  

This is something that is taught to us in the Bible. Again, there are many verses about patience. I know, because I often have to look them up in order to remind myself to have more patience. One of those verses is Ephesians 4:2 which says, “Be completely humble and gentle; be patient, bearing with one another in love.”   I love this verse because it first reminds us again, that we need to be humble.  No one in this world is perfect.  We have all made a mistake at some point.  That being said, we need to be willing to look at our fellow humans as creatures of God who also make mistakes.   It is important to remember that we are all flawed and need God’s grace.  This doesn’t mean we can’t disagree with a decision or an action that is made, but overall, we should have enough humility to understand and be compassionate when we and those around us are not perfect. 

Then it is a reminder to bear one another in love.  The word, bear, here has a few definitions.  This can mean carrying the weight or support, and also it can mean to be enduring.  This is a good reminder that we need to support one another, even when enduring hard situations with complete love.  Now, you may say, what does this have to do with apologizing?  I would say that this is a good reminder that even when we are enduring our hardships, and even when it feels like we need the support, we need to remind ourselves that we shouldn’t go out of our way to make someone else’s time worse. 

The last thing that I want to mention is, what if the person that you want to apologize to isn’t around?  What if they have moved on, or they are a stranger, or you have no way to contact them.  I think that it is important that we remember to pray to the Lord. We should do this even with those to whom we can apologize.  This is an opportunity to tell the Lord an apology for acting out against his own creation.  Then make sure you forgive yourself and vow to learn from the current experience.  

I am a third-year teacher.  Being such, I am very aware of the place where a lot of teachers are, in the United States.  There are many teachers that are wanting to quit their jobs.  There have even been teacher strikes in the state of Minnesota.  This is not just one school or one teacher, but a whole movement of teachers that are exhausted and angry that are choosing to leave the profession.  I have personally known some teachers that have had breakdowns and have been close to quitting.  I have even been very close.  This past week, especially,  has really shown me the great highs and lows of teaching.  

As hard as it is to understand and as much as I don’t always like it, I am only in charge of myself.  I just had a very hard week where I watched some students make some pretty bad choices, even after constant warnings that they need to watch what they are doing.  I preach that choices have consequences, but they did not listen to me or the other teachers.  I don’t want them to be punished, yet, here we are.  They made choices and now many of them are reaping the consequences.  

I have learned more and more that I need to depend on the Lord.  A great example of this is Lamentations 2:19, “Arise, cry out in the night, as the watches of the night begin; pour out your heart like water in the presence of the Lord.  Lift up your hands to him for the lives of your children, who faint from hunger at every street corner.”  I love this verse because it talks about lifting up children to the Lord.  I know that I am not actually a mother, but I look at the kids I teach like they are my own.  I can’t be in control of all the choices they make or whatever happens to them, but I can care about them, and I can certainly give my concerns to the Lord.

The thing I realized though was that I can not fix anyone.  I can try my best to give advice and I can try my best to give some thoughts, but at the same time, I can not fix anyone.  There is only God that can do any of those fixings.  One thing that I have learned is it is important to listen.  This is not the time for the “I told you so’s.”  It is a good reminder that everyone makes mistakes.  We have all been in a place that has made a big mistake.  My job is to help be there for the students.  Then lastly, I do try to do this for devotionals.  But I try to pray over my students, two every day.  I want to lift them up to the Lord because I know he is really the only one who can use their lives to the best of his ability.  

However, I do really love my job.  There are moments when it is harder to absolutely love it, but for the most part, I love getting to be a teacher and do what I do every day. Recently, even though it has been a few hard weeks at work, I have had some pretty memorable moments that I want to share with you all.  This is a good reminder for me to hold moments like these tight when the other moments are harder and seem to arise more regularly. 

The first one is our celebration for our high schoolers.  The school where I teach does a celebration for the high school students after they reached 1000 golden tickets (a golden ticket is awarded from a teacher to students for good behavior).  Our celebration then was to go roller skating.  I didn’t know how this would go.  I didn’t know if the kids would really have fun or would be whiney.  (I do work with high schoolers, after all.)  However, they had a great attitude, and it was a joyful experience to watch these kids be kids for a while.  Sometimes my students are very much caught up in the social drama, family trauma, and stress from school that they forget to get off their phones, laugh, and enjoy themselves and others.  At the roller skating party, they did just that. 

Another great moment is getting my Spanish II students ready to teach their first elementary lessons.  I love when my students go to the elementary school to teach those students Spanish and what they have been learning.  It has been wonderful to see my students taking it so seriously.  There was even one student who quoted, “It is so great that we are going to be spreading our Spanish knowledge with the younger kids.”  I love getting them the experience of being leaders.  Many of them will realize from these lessons that they may have a passion to work with the youth and lead others in a lesson and activity.  

Then the last one is my absolute favorite.  Every year, I want to give the Spanish IV students a chance to ask me any questions that they have about college.  I have my three Spanish IV student girls.  I gave them some money to go to the gas station to buy some breakfast for all of us.  Then they were allowed to write down any questions that they had about college and life after high school. This ended up being a great discussion! I was so happy that the students really had some good questions and really wanted to know what to expect.  This is a good reminder that in my job as a teacher, I have a bigger role to play than just being able to teach them the basic Spanish concepts.  Yes, I have that role too, but I also am supposed to be there for them and to teach them to succeed after high school.  

I have been blessed with a pretty great opportunity to teach the youth.  I get to be there for the hard moments, including them learning hard life lessons, as well as for the pure joyful moments like roller skating.  Then I also get to be there to help lead them to their next steps.  The best part, though, is that I am the vine of the Lord’s work.  The Lord is the one who is working in the kids’ lives, and I just get to be a part of it.